When Jesus saw Mary’s profound grief and the moaning and weeping of her companions, He was deeply moved by their pain in His spirit and was intensely troubled. Where have you laid his body? Come and see, Lord. As they walked, JESUS WEPT (John 11:33-35 Voice)
Beloved, this past weekend, I attended a women’s retreat themed ‘Alabaster Box’ based on the woman who wiped Jesus’ feet with her tears (Luke 7:37-38), and let’s just say I’ve never cried like I cried over the course of the three days. During worship, I cried. When I was ministering, I cried. When someone shared something, I cried. It got to the point it was all becoming too weird and I remember telling someone that if you ask me why I am crying, I honestly have no idea but I cried so much that my tears could fill a bucket. In fact, I didn’t just cry. I wailed to the point that it was becoming embarrassing.
After I got home from the retreat, I was so exhausted from all the crying but as I settled down in bed to watch the replay of a Sunday service I usually follow, it just happened that they were preaching about the time Jesus fed the multitude after blessing and BREAKING 5 loafs and 2 fishes. At some point, they started saying that “the tears are a sign that He is breaking you. The tears are not tears of pain. They are TEARS OF RESPONSIBILITY. God is about to break you into a brand-new level”. Hmmm… you can imagine that what they said caught my attention.
How weird? However, I must say this isn’t my first experience. A couple of weeks ago, I shared how the Lord has allowed things to provoke me just so I can travail before Him like Hannah did. And then, earlier in the year, my friend was telling of a painful childhood experience but while she was laughing as she was telling her story, I began to cry uncontrollable and again, this wasn’t ordinary tears. I knew it was the groaning of the Holy Spirit. It felt like it was all the tears she had bottled up from her childhood and I knew Jesus was up to healing some deep-rooted wounds.
Beloved, that was the first time our feature text became very alive to me; “Jesus wept”. Yes, His tears were tears of compassion but they also represented responsibility which said “I’m the One sent to carry the burden of these people and bring about their deliverance.
Why am I sharing this? It’s because there are probably some people who may be experiencing something similar. Perhaps, you’ve become very compassionate and like me, you are now a cry baby. That’s a sure sign of brokenness. Your tears are tears of responsibility and deliverance. God said to Moses… I have avidly watched how My people are being mistreated by the Egyptians. I have heard their groaning at the treatment of their oppressors. I am descending personally to rescue them. So get up. I’m sending you to Egypt.” (Acts 7:34 Voice)
Beloved, what are you crying over? Could the Lord be sending you as a deliverer? (Obadiah 1:21)